So yeah. No luck in homework nor studying, organizing & revising. Blame me for procrastinating.

Things have changed, yes. I'm talking to unique again. Felt foolish as I realized I still pledge for his attention; Foolish as I realized I still felt that twang of jealousy when I see him talking to his ex-crush-or-still-on-going-crush-whatever-i'm-no-stalker-wait-scratch-that-last-part-as-its-not-the-whole-truth. Foolish as I felt pure bliss when he first talked to me since the last 12 days then felt like I was drenched in cold water and out in a storm when he didn't care talking to me and just continue talking to his ex-crush*inserts the long sentence here*.

We had a sport's day at home on the 25th. the day unique put me in heaven & hell simultaneously. Cousins from mummy's and daddy's side came. It was a bad day for me since the start as he was there and I was still building up the courage to tell him and he just stands there with :c

and I felt like shit the whole day as Ka Farah kept pestering me to talk to him and all I can do was stare at him from afar and blushes when he caught me in the act.

then at night he talked to me and I went :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

How pathetic.

then he did it again and I went :'c

its like a routine. over and over again.

and the most pathetic thing is ... I still held on.

Well, at night (we rent 2 bouncers, a slide and the jump thingy) us big kids went to play. stupid wannabes kids went to join (4 in total) I wanted to tell them off but was too busy playing.HAHA. other kids were jealous. STILL felt like I should tell the other 4 off. they were really sakai. pffft. thought that they had the 'priviledge' to join the Big Kids. Well, one reason for us Big Kids to dont want the young 'uns to join is because we're rough. Girls and Guys. We play rough *no yellow stuff please. LOL* I still have my bruises and scratches from that day and its already been what? 4 days? and the other reason is that its boring to have a kid let alone 4 of them to join. (heck! the slide is tiny lagi.) Now I know how my older cousins must have felt when they were trying to ditch us when we were younger.

hookay. lets just end that. too boring. LOL. Didyou guys fell asleep?

okay now. TODAY. as in Tuesday. the HMB family are going on a 2 days trip to Miri. My family is planning to go tomorrow plus my maid and Ka farah and Ka mirah and possibly jierah but I doubt that). Abang ajiem and unique asked my mum if they can join us rather than the HMB because they have to drive my uncle to his chemo thing later today.

I was ............... I don't know. Am having mixed feelings. I shouldn't have felt this way. LOL. whatever. Don't want to spill the beans.

okay. okay. okay.

K.

FINE.

I'm going to continue playing Pokemon now. or maybe later. I have Sims too.

p/s: Hafeez chooses Torchic and named him Blaze. HOMAIGOD WHAT A COINCIDENCE. JEGLOUGEW KFGEW KRGHER UKRG,BEG KGRAH.

my Blaze has evolved and is on Level 32++ now, even though I just installed the game yesterday. :D and I have at least 20 pokemon. TROLOLOLOLO. like you guys care.

toodles~