I have done so many things I have regretted - only to find myself in the same predicament over and over again.

But not anymore. This might sound like an overly used statement in my case but I'm going to keep it this time.

I will not wait for time to do its bidding - I will not wait for fate to unwind itself.

I will make it happen. If I want it, I will do it. If I wish it I will make it.

I have to keep in mind that sometimes, the problem does not lie in me; does not lie in my intellectual capabilities - but (as cheesy as it sounds) the chemistry, the "connection", the "click" between myself and my teachers. They are, of course, not at fault, yet I must not push myself to the corner because I've got no one else to blame other than myself.

Because sometimes, there's just no one to blame. If there is, it will most probably doesn't matter.

I will strive my way to become a better student, with better student qualities to make up all my "missing pieces".

You do not know how grateful I am for my teachers. (Thank gosh Teacher's Day is coming soon) Seeing them see myself as a potential great student is just heart swelling. (Of course, I have only myself to blame to not be able to flourish and be better)

I just need to learn to make their vision come true. Qualifyings are just.... unspeakable. So even a day after it, I'm going to go full speed ahead with my A level revisions!

No more excuses.

Never again.